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Before I get to the Shadow Tuesday Primary (TX - Caucus and Primary, OH, VT and RI) which will be in the next post, I want to break down the Fourth Wall for a while.
At this moment, I am still suffering from my Writer's Block. Tonight I was on the phone with Malcot discussing why this was going on. She has known me since Election 1996, so there was a little insight.
Suffice it to say, at this moment, I am dealing with a low level depression (that I did know), but it was because I am despondent (that came from the phone call). At this point in my life, I thought I would be more established, more stable and more secure financially than where I am at this moment.
Getting up to work is a hassle -- I see trends in the industry, but no one taps me for my head. I live in the same town as the California Republican Party, but they never returned my calls. Even when I was working on the multi-level, multi-million dollar event. College educated, but struggling.
What I didn't learn in school, I learnt on my own. Street smarts and book smarts. My birthday was three months ago, and I'm still feeling unfulfilled. I want to change the world, but I can't even help myself.
I go to work, I try to succeed, but I feel very alone in my struggle and my lack of achievements. When the Writer's Block hit, I felt it was taking away from my goals. I can tackle almost any problem, but internal ones.
I can do well in DC, but I am barely surviving in LA. I sleep too much and I write too little. I have no desire to get up in the morning or stay awake during the day. I am withering on the vine.