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People who know me felt a "disturbance in the force," two days ago. It was felt by Malcot in Michigan and a friend in New York.
I touched on the issue briefly on this post. So, here I go, dropping the fourth wall again.
However, there were two triggers for the low-level depression (now upped a notch), I am going through:
1) Going to the Leadership Institute Broadcast Journalism Class -- I realize I don't want to be a TV reporter, but then I realize, I should be more than what I am right now.
2) I bought Southland Tales. Somehow in all the mess is a trigger for something about me. What? I don't know.
I am the type of person who believes in trade. I help, you help me. Oldest Political law in the book. (And learned from both the Tammany and Queens Political Machines, and also among the National Republicans) If I step up in a situation, I would like help getting to my goals. If that is not the case, I believe that I should be able to Help me Help myself towards the goal. Either way, makes me a better person. But neither is happening.
Both professional and non-professional people are saying to stay away from writing both books and the Blog. I want to change the world, but I need a leg up on changing myself.
Unfortunately, I am in a bad place right now. Talking about politics is a distraction, for now. I hope to be back up by next week. As long as the medium-level stays at that point.
I live, but right now, I don't feel alive. My goals (and my endgame) seem too far away. My situation is unenviable, and I'm feeling very lonely in my quest. As I said, not a good place.
I am available for incoming comments and calls, just there is very few outgoing right now. Here is song I'm humming right now:
Remember the first rule of politics (which is unused by the California Republicans and other Californians), I help you, you help me. That is a founding principle, and seems to have been long ago forgotten.